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At the centre

at the centre of it all is this: those tender moments replay like videoreel slides out of sync, but they are still tender. but then I tell myself, clearly that is what I imagined, this tenderness betweeen us was me, … Continue reading

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When Writing Through Suffering Becomes Suffering Through Writing

 A lot of my writing happens when the stress of an experience or situation demands I think about what has happened. A lot of my analytic writing happens when I need to answer, for myself, the questions of “how” or … Continue reading

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An extended post mortem

some days from the past hang in the present, a soft layer over the now I guess all days do, technically, but I feel the weight of some days more than others. there are new songs i listen to sometimes … Continue reading

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Memory

CN: dissociation, and possibly other MH stuff, memory issues My favourite thing about the Netflix crime show Marcella has to be how Marcella navigates her memory fog. The fugue phases. Granted in her case, she usually does something extreme or … Continue reading

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Distracted

fingers building arpeggios like a bridge from then to now. we can’t go back. memory is a wormhole. pretend you’re yelling at someone. publicly and furiously. do you feel her flesh the moment the words land. when she blinks, do … Continue reading

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Dredge

Last night, I turned into the moon; far away, one side: a shining face, shedding reflected light and tears, hanging on a paper wire from the ceiling of your bedroom; I am suspended over your bed. Sometimes I freeze time without meaning … Continue reading

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Blood and Lemon and Salt

“Why can’t we be friends” he asks. “It doesn’t seem right, we’ve known each other so long.” I have come to love the smell of things ending, a fresh and steely cut like blood and lemon and salt air that … Continue reading

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Reflections

As 2015 comes to a close, I’m recognizing that it is the first time in many years that I’ve been able to think about a new beginning with hope, with a fresh outlook, with an imagination. This is a post about healing, … Continue reading

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Pretty Men Stone Lady

Part 1 I looked in my sister’s face and found my reflection, the one I had crawled out of somewhere last year, The shell  on the other side of the room, I carry her with me, the carcass, the carapace still venom … Continue reading

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Christmas Post – 2015: Remembering Christmas

This is dedicated to A.D.K, for bringing Christmas back into my life. Even though you left, it stayed behind. Thank you 🙂 TW: Mental Health, mention of suicidal ideation, depression, and anxiety It’s hard to pinpoint what exactly it is that … Continue reading

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